Continuing on my "type" series, here are a few images that make me smile. Oh and yes, that is an engagement ring. Joseph and I have worked through our separation and chose to step into a stronger and prosperous future.
"For Hearts Long Lost & Full of Fright, For Those Alone In Blackest Night, Accept Our Ring & Join Our Fight. Love Conquers All With Violet Light!"
*Shaddai
I wrote this poem sometime last week, just two days before Joseph and I agreed to go our separate ways. Towards the end of November, it became very clear that there was something in the air; enough so that many of my friends and I were experiencing the same heartbreak. I still care very deeply for him, and all though it hurts to know the feeling of being pushed away, I prefer to dwell on the feelings when we held each other close. He will continue to be my best friend, and I will continue to respect him as a person.
What is helping me most during my new journey, is the love and compassion of my friends and family. I know I'm a good person, and I enjoy giving all the love that I can give. What can I say? I like to share ;o)
So to all the Men and Women out there going through the same heartache; please accept the love, hope, and best wishes from everyone around you. Feed off of that positive energy and use it to pay it forward. We are all very valuable in this World, and I believe if we do more good than damage, we will never feel heartbreak again.
I Love You Friends and Keep the Faith Alive!
*Shaddai
Dear Santa,
I was 11 years old when I wrote this, and to this day I remember that sad Christmas. We were given the news on Christmas Eve, that my Uncle Pepe had left this Earth to join our Father. I don't know how long he had been suffering from AIDS, but I remember his last days. He found God and Love from a Nurse who cared deeply for him. He smiled every time that I saw him, and he spoke with great gratitude. He took the time to visit all of his loved ones, and made sure to let everyone know he loved us all. Dear Santa, I'm not angry with you. It's been 17 years since we last spoke, but know that I see him in you. Giving, jolly, and thoughtful. If nothing else this Christmas, I wish for the World to be as loving as my Uncle Pepe, even in our last days.
Sincerely,
Shaddai B.
2010 has been one of those difficult years for me, but even through the hardship and struggles; I'm capable to see all the things I'm grateful for.
I am grateful for my immediate family who gives me tough love, and as a result have molded me to become a better person. I am grateful to have EIGHT Families that have touched my heart and offered their grace. You guys always made an effort to welcome me into your homes, and graciously cared about me as an individual. I'm grateful to have my best friend live near me, and although we fight as sisters we love each other just the same. I'm grateful for all my friends who have kept in touch with me through out the years; it brings so much joy in my heart when we chat for hours catching up on life. I am grateful for the new friends I have met since I've lived in Dallas. Many of you I've worked with and many of you through others; I never not stopped laughing with you all. Lastly but definitely not least, I'm grateful for Joseph to have given me a chance, to accept me as I am, and for believing in me when I'm unsure of myself. I can't thank you enough for all of your love and support, you rock my world.
I Love You All, I Love You All, I Love You All! Happy Thanksgiving!
*Shaddai Berron
I had the best photo shoot today with this beautiful baby boy. His parents were awesome, and it was great to see their faces after I showed them their pictures. It feels great to be able to capture other peoples precious moments; I never knew how truly rewarding that is.
So for the last week, since my return from Philadelphia, I've been pushing myself to be a little more productive each and everyday. Although it may be little things to others, they're mighty steps for me that have brought me instant gratification. For example, it had been almost 3 years since I last cleaned my vehicle, inside and out. The minute I stepped in my car after driving a nice, clean rental car for 4 days, I felt an instant disgust. The filth and chaos that was happening in my car was festering inside of me, and I couldn't have it no more. Thus began my mission to do something about it, and do it RIGHT! After 2 hours of hard work, I felt a zen and satisfaction that I haven't felt in some time. I was so excited, I wanted to pickup people and have them share my happiness. It felt good to be clean, if felt good to be calm, it felt good to be proud. What's great is that it hasn't stopped there. Each day I've been updating my pictures and posting them when I can, keeping up with potential jobs, and recently Joseph & I rearranged our Office and Bedroom. For the first time, everything feels right and everything feels like home. Now, the first thought that comes to mind waking up is, "What will I do today that I would be proud of?" Let me tell you... I've been happy ever since. I leave you with a favorite quote I read in tiny buddha: "You’re not one small person waiting to create big change. You’re a powerful person wanting to create small change."
http://tinybuddha.com/blog/on-getting-started-when-you-do-not-feel-ready/
Dear Downtown Dallas,
Has anyone told you how beautiful you are today? You've shared your secrets with me, from the best french toast in town to the most original shopping spots that pioneer new trends. You've welcomed the whole World into your ever changing life and manage to continue to grow in harmony, pleasing every single fan this Country has to offer. There's nothing you can not do, and you always know the right words to say that pushes every single local in town to be just as grand as you. Thank You for being Old, New, and Unique. You are a True Friend to Keep, Thank You for Loving Us So.
Sincerely,
*Shaddai Berron
I'm a very fortunate gal, surrounded by beautiful people from the inside and out. I don't think there are many people out there who can truly say that and mean it.
Normally I don't question if I myself personally am a "One of a Kind", as far as the Ideal Package of the Perfect Girl. Mainly because I find myself being able to talk to many women out there who I can relate to, whether it's one or a few things that we have in common. So it always shocks me when guys say that they want a girl who can do, or enjoy certain things. I don't think its hard to find these women that are apparently "The White Unicorn". With that said, I believe it goes both ways. The Man or Woman of every ones dream is more then likely right in front of them.
Joseph and I have known each other for roughly 5 years, but it was 2 years ago when Joseph and I first started to really talk. He'd say to me that he's just like an onion; so many layers of skin before you get to the core. We have yet to reach each others core, even as we approach our 2nd year of silliness together. Truth be told, I think our relationship is more of a series of Layers that keep being Added, much like a Growing Onion. I think what matters is that the Core stay stable and healthy, so that we can keep adding layers of skin that will protect us internally and physically be perfect to our mate.
Since we've been together, I've been able to add a few layers that I never knew I could embrace. To name a few: Photography, Zombies, Graphic Novels, Kid Robot, Horror/Slasher Movies, Rock Band, Boba Tea, Loose Leaf Tea, Star Wars Role Playing Games.... and that's just in the last year. Two years ago, I would never thought I'd be where I am today; and no words can truly describe my appreciation for life right now, especially the one I get to share with my loved ones.
You are perfect, my life is perfect, and I have God to Thank for it all.
Sometimes you don't know how important you are or all the people you've touched, until they show you their appreciation for you. I'm so grateful for all the Love I received on my Birthday, and all the amazing people I have in my life.
It's not in my nature to ask for people to remember me, nor do I expect anything from anyone. So when they do, I'm completely lost for words and hold in my tears because it has never been my intention to be some what of an importance to anyone.
My Goal in life has always been to make people happy. To give them experiences, to share with them first times and continuing traditions. I Love People! I can't be alone because I Love People! I Love Seeing People Smile, I Love when they're Excited about Life, I Love when they're Passionate about what They're Interested In. I Love Everything about People who Also Love People.
The Human Race is a Work of Art, and I Love that I am a Product of Life. Our Love is Endless, and Our World is Ours to Appreciate and Cherish. Lets start by caring for one another, that is my Promise to the World.
Thank You for Loving Me as I Love You ;o)
*Shaddai Berron
"And in the End, the Love You Take. Is Equal to the Love, You Make." - The Beatles
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